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i bet you did what you did when you did it to do it again by the time you were done with it [21 Dec 2009|10:18am]

so i just checked my grades- got a 3.94 gpa this semester. i'm pretty proud of myself, especially since this semester kicked my ass more than usual. i never ever have to think of astronomy ever again and that makes me so ridiculously happy because that class was horrible. extremely interesting, but science and me just can't get along. we've tried.

i have never prepared myself for a class before it actually starts, but i'm taking a biblical interpretation of the gospels class next semester so i'm gonna grab my handy dandy bible and start reading matthew, mark, luke, and john. i've heard this is an extremely intense class and although i have been raised with these stories, i'm nowhere near being an expert. i'm also taking an advanced british literature class and even though english/literature is my major, british literature is my downfall-it's probably the type of literature i read the least. so both jane eyre and great expectations are on my bedstand and i will finish them in the next two and half weeks.

besides that, christmas break has been very relaxing. kind of. as much as i love seeing my friends from back home, i'm realizing what an introvert i am and how much i love alone time. at college, i never have alone time because people are always around. but at home - i have the opportunity to just be by myself, and i really don't mind it. i love being with my family, i like just chilling with my parents and my brothers. seriously, 95% of the time, i'd choose to hang out with my family over any of my friends. all my friends either hate their parents & siblings or have major issues with them. i've never had that problem. they are my best friends.

if there are any manchester orchestra fans out there, go listen to their 12 days of christmas, the entire mean everything to nothing album acoustic. it's beautiful.

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fourteen inches of snow, how beautiful is that? [10 Dec 2009|04:13pm]

These are words to build a life on. These are your words, how can they be mine? These are words to build a life on, these are your words- I want them to be mine. Blessed are the poor, blessed are the weak, blessed are the ones who can barely speak. Blessed in your hurt now, blessed in your pain, blessed when your teardrops are falling down like rain. Blessed when you're broken, blessed when you're blind, blessed when you're fragile, when you have lost your mind. Blessed when you're desperate, blessed when you're scared, blessed when you're lonely, blessed when you've failed. Blessed when you're beat up, blessed when you're bruised, blessed when you're tore down, blessed when you're used. These are words to build a life on. These are your words, how can they be mine? These are words to build a life on, these are your words- I want them to be mine. Blessed when you're heartbroke, blessed when you're fired, blessed when you're choked up, blessed when you're tired. Blessed when the plans that you so carefully laid end up in the junkyard with all the trash you made. Blessed when you feel like giving up the ghost, blessed when your loved ones are the ones who hurt you most. Blessed when you lose your own identity, then blessed when you find it, and it has been redeemed. Blessed when you see what your friends can never be, blessed with your eyes closed, then blessed you see me. These are words to build a life on. These are your words, how can they be mine? These are words to build a life on, these are your words- I want them to be mine. Blessed when you're hungry, blessed when you thirst, because that's when you will eat of - the bread that matters most. Blessed when you're put down- because of me you're dissed, because of me you're kicked out, they take you off their list. You know you're on the mark now, you know you've got it right, you are to be my salt, you are to be my light. So bring out all the flavor in the feast of this, my world, and light up all the colors, let the banner be unfurled. Shout it from the rooftops, let the trumpets ring. Sing your freaking lungs out; tell them Jesus Christ is King! Jesus is my Saviour, Jesus is divine, Jesus is my answer, Jesus is my life, my life, my life, my life. These are words to build a life on. These are your words, how can they be mine? These are words to build a life on, these are your words- I want them to be mine. Give us ears that we may hear them, voice that we may sing them, life that we may live them, hope that we may give them, hearts that we can feel them, eyes that we can see them, thoughts that we may think them, tongues that we may speak your words. These are your words, I want them to be mine. Blessed are the poor, blessed are the weak, blessed are the ones who can barely speak. Blessed in your hurt now, blessed in your pain, blessed when your teardrops are falling down like rain.

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[07 Dec 2009|08:10pm]

i've already come to the conclusion that i'm completely useless. it's just that lately, it's never been more apparent than now.

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time, time, ticking on me, alone is the last place i wanted to be. [05 Dec 2009|09:49pm]

i've stopped asking myself why. i'm now on how.
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pleasefindthis.blogspot.com is perfect [26 Nov 2009|10:59pm]

The Shop That Lets You Rent Happiness












"This is the one." The universe assures me from behind the counter.

"But I thought you said the last one was the one." I reply.

"No." Says the universe. "I sold you that one so you would know that this, this is the one."

"Is there another one?" I ask the universe.

"I can't tell you." They reply. "It'd ruin the surprise."
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[22 Nov 2009|02:13pm]

i am home on thanksgiving break, two days in and i already have too much time to sit around and read/think. i read this essay in one of the books lying around my house about what i would accomplish if i knew i could never fail. the list was large, but the items were small things that could be achieved easily, i've just never gotten around to it. looking at this list, i feel extremely pathetic. i mean, what the hell is holding me back? i am a poor man's version of myself. i plan trips but never take them, i buy the guitar but never learn, i buy books but never read them, i buy clothes i never wear, i create plotlines and characters for novels that i never finish writing, i have feelings but never act on them. i don't have enough time to do things i want, scratch that - i don't make time. i am only nineteen but i feel like i've gotten nothing done in my life. i haven't been truly happy with myself since 2005. from now on - i start finishing what i begin.

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is there a home for the homeless? is there hope for the hopeless? [20 Nov 2009|04:27pm]

he talks and i intently hear the words and cling to them. i grab them and store them in my long term memory to hold on to for later, i know everything about him and he knows nothing about me and i'm perfectly fine with that. i love knowing everything about him, i wouldn't have it any other way because i'd almost rather listen than speak. he is bipolar and i am always confused, i am usually so good at reading people but with him, i draw a blank and every day is something new. whenever i think i have him figured out he does something completely unexpected and i'm back at square one. he stutters and mumbles and mixes up his words and he is flawed and perfect and everything in between. and he is the reason why i am slowly learning how to feel again.

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[17 Nov 2009|04:52pm]

the whole world is watching, you haven't come this far to fall off the earth
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